am i just done for? 17f

I’m always being rated low. The annoying part is no one gives me genuine advice on what i could do to fix myself.

I even INCLUDE plastic surgery but nobody knows why or what makes me ugly and it’s so depressing because being considered attractive is all i look forward to in my life.

idk if i can even take it mentally anymore because no one has a reason for my repulsiveness. and i tell them not to sugarcoat. i hate being ugly and black, it’s one of the worst combinations. i just want to max out my appearance but if i can’t then i’m just going to off myself. everyday i try to live but it gets harder when no one acknowledges or cares about you.

i just want to be happy with myself man, but i physically can’t be until i look good and i can’t