I Know Why I'm Here

I've been drinking for almost 10 years. I can't say that I'm not sure why I'm here. The subreddit popped up on some recommendation list and I thought to take a look.

A good many posts I'm seeing resonate with me and a few shed light on what could be, all while still holding realism. I tell myself everyday that I won't grab beers on the way home from work and I've had a drink every night this week. I'm dealing with some medical issues that are mild and have gotten better over the last 3 months of slowing down, but the past 2 weeks I have leaned back heavily into my alcoholism.

I want to stop. I don't want to drink. I sleep so well without it and, in the mornings, my stomach doesn't feel like a ton of bricks being ground up.

I have not tried everything, I've been lying to myself and skating by. I'm done drinking tonight.