Can I please get a IWNDWYT?

To put this into footnotes version, I just found out my husband of 17 years has been paying a girls, 20 years his junior, rent, phone, streaming services, $1000.00 a month living expenses, oh and of course, sleeping with her. Mostly when I was at my mom's assisted living facility, helping her out.

I'm not in a good place. I am not well mentally or emotionally. No I am not going to hurt myself or anyone else.

But I could really use a few IWNDWYT's.