I gave in...

I really haven't got this.

Nearly 5 months AF. On Christmas eve, I had two small glasses of champagne with friends. Christmas day, had another two small glasses.

It's Christmas, just having a couple, all good right? No. Because today I woke with the anxiety I'd been blissfully free off the past few months. I spent all morning with the should I /shouldn't I thoughts on having a drink later. They distracted me, I went from no thoughts about drinking to constant cognitive dissonance all day where I'd feel better if only I had a drink. It was a strong feeling.

I'm resetting back to 1 today. I've reminded myself why life is better without the booze. If you are reading this and are tempted, please consider not what it might give you,but what it will take away.