The worst part about recovering from being a functioning alcoholic is the realization that you weren't nearly as functional as you thought you were

I've been sober for 17 days which is currently my longest streak.

I "was" (remains to be seen) a hardcore 5 o'clocker and even though I never drank at work I was still getting myself wasted on most nights and going to work in the morning.

And so far the hardest part for me is all of the comments from not only my coworkers but also my clients. More than once i've been told that I seem to be a completely different person and look so much better.

It was really sombering to get the wake up call after I quit drinking that I wasn't nearly as functional in the workplace as I thought I was. And things I thought people didn't notice I now know that they did.

Even if you think you are hiding it well, you're not. Believe me, you're not. It's best to quit and get better and move forward. You will be a better person and yes people will notice but it's a lot better than never changing and staying in the stagnancy of barely functioning alcoholism. Eventually it will become a problem.

You can quit. You can get better.