Soph used to be my comfort creator

I lovedddd Soph when I initially found her because I was going through the exact same thing (the jojo/avery leztopia sht) but over the last year I just haven’t been as into her content anymore. I wish she’d actually committed to the goals she’d set for herself like using her degree or being a life coach (despite the fact I hate the whole life coach thing) or even the Pilates / mat instructor stuff would’ve been cool to see from her. I find myself more annoyed by the fact that she essentially gets to go shop for a living and share her same routine every week - even her travel content stopped being engaging to me and I used to love it.

I really miss her Florida content and healing era lowkey, she says she’s better / happier on the meds which is so great I will acknowledge that, but Soph and I are the same age and I used to compare so much before I realized I’ve done significantly more to change things in my life over the last few years while going through similar challenges (I have chronic pain and mental health issues but continue to work through that) and I built my own business and went back to school to expand on my education and even worked for the government and maintain a small media platform for myself (primarily for freelance work though) (I’m Canadian the gov job was not in the US) which was an amazing opportunity. Outside of this I also had to check a lot of personal behaviours that were getting in my own way and learning I wasn’t always a victim in situations (spent a long time on this, her new years post where she mentioned being dumped just makes me wonder what that relationship was like with Anna and why Anna threw so many insults / jabs at her over the last year)

Obviously I could just stop watching her content and move on, if she’s happiest this way than cool but I don’t see her content creation life style lasting much longer, maybe she’d be happier with a simple life and a real job(?). She doesn’t even dance as much anymore either which makes me sad, I want to be understanding as I am in a similar place in life age wise and have also stopped some interests but I just don’t find anything super interesting now.

I also cannot read the vibes on her and Natalie, I don’t personally believe the BF rumours (or maybe that’s just me being hopeful lmao) but she just doesn’t seem like she’s “in” that relationship but also her gf content is significantly less than it was with Avery or Anna so I really can’t define this / nor is it entirely my place.

I think I’m kind of over her content though as far as parasocial relationships go, I feel like I’ve essentially “out grown” her as a comfort creator but even on the same level (which this makes me sound like a total ass but I feel it’s true)

Anyway, off to find a new wlw comfort creator I vibe with 😪