I'm counting my last days (update)

Hi, I'm the same person who made this post a while ago and who deleted the account, My name is Lex, I am a trans/nb person who is originally Amab.

A lot has happened, I didn't think I would make it past New Year's but here I am, writing this. My parents found out that I sh, and now they are seeking help for me, I'm going to a psychiatrist in a few days, but even though I'm getting help now it's still all empty, many things are getting worse even with the help I am now receiving.

I'm sober, I can't cut myself anymore, I can't leave the house anymore, I'm stuck, more stuck than before, the people who tried to help me before my parents left, one of them helped me, but in fact it was an 18 year old guy taking advantage of me who asked me to send nude pictures of myself (which I did...)(He deleted his account after I confronted him about his age) ,I'm already full of traumas and problems, I could have solved all of this but now I'm just making everything worse, I don't know why I gave up trying that day, now I'm lost.

I have no friends, no boyfriend, people don't even want to come near me, I don't have the gender I want, I don't have the body I want, and my family have more important people to take care of, I just want this to end, I don't know why I asked for help, this is all a mistake, why is living so cruel?

Hi, I'm the same person who made this post a while ago and who deleted the account, My name is Lex, I am a trans/nb person who is originally Amab.

A lot has happened, I didn't think I would make it past New Year's but here I am, writing this. My parents found out that I sh, and now they are seeking help for me, I'm going to a psychiatrist in a few days, but even though I'm getting help now it's still all empty, many things are getting worse even with the help I am now receiving.

I'm sober, I can't cut myself anymore, I can't leave the house anymore, I'm stuck, more stuck than before, the people who tried to help me before my parents left, one of them helped me, but in fact it was an 18 year old guy taking advantage of me who asked me to send nude pictures of myself (which I did...)(He deleted his account after I confronted him about his age) ,I'm already full of traumas and problems, I could have solved all of this but now I'm just making everything worse, I don't know why I gave up trying that day, now I'm lost.

I have no friends, no boyfriend, people don't even want to come near me, I don't have the gender I want, I don't have the body I want, and my family have more important people to take care of, I just want this to end, I don't know why I asked for help, this is all a mistake, why is living so cruel?