My dreams love torturing me
I feel good and that Im making good progress on my mental health and boom my brain puts me through the worst and most detailed experience I ever lived. I should just go fuck myself and try to forget it by numbing I guess because there is no managing this, I went through the pain, the fear, the regret and guilt and the slow dive into nothingness as your existence crumbles all the while knowing you could have prevented this if you werent so dumb lazy and a little bit less of a dissapointment. God why am I so against changing myself and getting better, why did my dream make me watch my family while losing consciousness, begging for help knowing its too late and I cant even speak
I feel good and that Im making good progress on my mental health and boom my brain puts me through the worst and most detailed experience I ever lived. I should just go fuck myself and try to forget it by numbing I guess because there is no managing this, I went through the pain, the fear, the regret and guilt and the slow dive into nothingness as your existence crumbles all the while knowing you could have prevented this if you werent so dumb lazy and a little bit less of a dissapointment. God why am I so against changing myself and getting better, why did my dream make me watch my family while losing consciousness, begging for help knowing its too late and I cant even speak