Why I am envious of my older brothers looks, and my resentment towards his luck with women.
Even despite being a few CM taller than my brother, him being around 166-167 CM, and me hovering around 168-169 barefoot, I am still severely mismatched in terms of appearance. Since both of us are short, a small difference of a few CM means nothing, and he is able to punch above his weight due to one trait, which is his face.
To display the degree of which he is advantaged in comparison to me, I will provide a set of photos of my brother, and then, myself.
My brother, who has a highly conventionally attractive face is chased by every woman despite his medicore personality that he wholeheartedly believes is "awesome" and "interesting". https://imgur.com/a/Tbm6VmC
Now, comparatively, here are some highly disappointing photos which place just how unbelievably screwed I am in dating. https://imgur.com/a/gf3rZf7
The unfortunate part is that all of this makes me come off as obsessive over something that isn't important, though when women treat me as invisible and tend to chase other socially awkward kids simply because they are attractive despite having no redeeming qualities over me, it's not a question that my looks don't affect my chances.
When my brother denies all of that and then proceeds to lie and say that I am better looking than him and acts as if he only gets the girls he does because of his upstanding personality, it fills me with a certain type of hopeless rage, when I see the fact that everyone tells him he is attractive and good looking, labeling him as hot, while I'm simply condescendingly called "cute". Most people over the internet call me average while calling him an 7/10.
When I walk by him on the sidewalk, I'll notice a lot of women flirtatiously staring at him as they overlook me completely, not ackowledging my existence, something that immediately throws the argument of "your personality is just bad BRO" away, when he doesn't even talk to those women and recieves unconditional attention based on nothing at all, other than existing.
The girls I've seen check him out tend to be attractive and amazing bags, looking at him with lustful or actually loving eyes that I don't think I've ever seen the sight of, causing me to enter into a state of a genuine emotional breakdown and longing, as I try to hold back my tears.
Most evidence has shown that women tend to view me as more of a background prop than anything worth recieving attention, as they would have absolutely no reason to go out with a 5'6 guy that looks like the most average or perhaps below average person ever when they have other options that will make them look better socially and are also taller and more good looking. This means that I have to put on some sort of a charming mask to even be able to pull someone, maybe in a few years.