I don’t even know anymore

I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m ugly, which leads me to accept that I’ll never get to experience mutual love from anyone outside my family throughout my life. This depressing reality is starting to impact my school work which I’m not even sure matters anymore. Only thing I have are my hobbies/interests I have which is not a life that’s fulfilling. I’m not even sure what to do with my life or myself, I don’t see anything changing for the better if any at all.