feeling like a failure

me 23(f) am struggling with mental health. my boyfriend 27(m) takes care of me primarily and is so happy to care for me, he loves me so much, and he supports me staying home to care for myself while I feel better.

I can't hold a job because I just HATE everything I do, and i'm pretty sure that's tying in with my mental health. I feel like a failure because he has his life together. has an amazing career, a beautiful house, a nice car, and im just struggling. im at a loss in my life and I have no idea what to do. I feel like an awful person for not being able to get it together.

I want to be able to be the best version of myself not only for him but, for me.. I don't feel like a deserve someone who is so amazing to me, just for me to be at my worst. any ideas where to start?