9 weeks still no ultrasound

My ultrasound was cancelled twice. My 8 week appt was cancelled the morning of and my appointment (on my birthday tomorrow) was cancelled today. This is my first pregnancy and I have basically no symptoms and I just needed this reassurance to know what’s going on with my body. I’m thinking of booking an ultrasound at one of those elective places to get a visual and heartbeat. Just here to vent. Especially being my first and having history of fertility issues this just sucks so much to be bounced around and let down each time 😫