Life after graduation, kumusta?

Kumusta mga fresh grad here?

Ganito pala ang life after univ hehe I'm having an existential crisis rn I'm so confuse ano bang gagawin ko.

For context: I was the middle child in the fam, ako pa lang ang may degree bc nag stop ang ate for 4 yrs (she's 2nd yr college now, working student, & breadwinner). I graduated last October then I've decided to rest muna after grad since college took a toll on me lalo na nung nagkasakit mama ko and ako lagi ang kasama nya every check up then nagkasabay sabay yung mga problems when my 3rd yr in college started then mama passed away months before i graduated.

I feel guilty every time wala akong naaambag sa bahay tho di naman ako pinipressure ng ate and papa sa paghahanap ng work. Idk maybe im too hard on myself i feel like a burden every time nakikita ko sila ate and papa nammroblema about bills and everyday gastos sa bahay. May naibibigay naman ako kahit papaano since may part-time job ako but i always feel na parang kulang pa.

I started job hunting nung last week ng December. I sent 9 applications from different companies hoping to land a decent job. I just wish makakuha na ng job before this month end. (Wish me luck)

Ganito pala kahirap ang realidad hahaha. Mga fellow fresh grad? Kumusta kayo?