Send help!

Im really tired of lying to myself.

Everyday for the past three weeks I've been telling myself I'll wake up at 5am, do some yoga, exercise, meditate then read.

I'm so tired of feeling like a loser at the end of each day knowing I didn't accomplish anything. It's really not a good feeling, plus the fear that even if I start I'll probably not be consistent, nitaachia katikati, the past is sufficient evidence. We try and try then fall back.

Na si aty ni uzembe ni kikitu tu, like in the morning tell me why I wake up then snooze like 50 times then have the best sleep of my whole life, then regret it.

Nimechoka bana, the people who have actually been here, how did you stay consistent. Plus the people who consistently wake up early and have sometime for fitness and alone time, what keeps you going😭😭

I can't continue living like this. Send help! This is the 7th unhealthy meal I'm having nikijiambia it's the last one before I start a strict one😅

I'm very tired of myself, I can't even express it enough!