Was I passively su*cidal as a child?

I was born with a medical condition that put me through a lot of surgeries and doctor visits. I have a distinct memory from about 8 years old when I was frustrated or upset about going to the doctor again. And I stated to my mom, “I wish I had never been born”. I remember my mom being mortified and told me not o say things like that. For reference that was the 90s and I don’t think parents were as sensitive to mental health regarding their children. I feel like that was passively su*cidal and it makes me sad that I felt that way at some point as a kid.