I have a problem with attention seeking.

I feel like i am "forcing" my depression. Constantly making it seem that i am doing worse than i actually am. Doing things like purposefully keeping myself awake so that people around me ask if i am okay or if i got any sleep. Not sure why, but it is quite more common with me doing it to adults. I love it when i get comforted by my teachers or just people older than me in general. I quite literally need that attention. What could be the reason behind this? I just really want an answer.