Day 414: I could have never done this sober.

26/01/25

I'm trying my best to be sober. I don't want to give my substance abuse all the credit but I can't deny its roll in my growth. I need to let go though, I no longer need this. I'm not the person I was last year, nor am I the person I was ten years ago.

I'm out of my mind right now, but for the last seven days I questioned whether or not I was right. I'm miserable under the influence and miserable sober. I made the most money I've ever made in my life last year all under the influence. I lived alone under the influence. I had friends for the first time in my life under the influence.

I'm still going to try again to stay sober. The hard part is deciding whether or not it's the right choice.