He relapsed and I think I’m done

I’m so done. D-day was about 7 months ago. Emotional affair AND porn. Then in October I found a message to a girl on Reddit who just posts naked pics. Luckily she didn’t respond so the convo didn’t go anywhere.

I’ve been feeling anxious recently and feel like something is up so I asked to look at his phone tonight. Thanks to you smart cookies in this sub, I decided to take a peek at his screen time and app activity, and oh boy did I hit the jackpot. This man is on “uhmegle” 1-2 hours a day talking to random people (he says it’s nothing explicit), he’s on onlyfans almost every day, as well as reddit which I know he uses strictly for porn. I started taking pictures of some of the things I was looking at and he had the audacity to be annoyed. And ALSO had the audacity to say “I don’t consider onlyfans to be cheating”. I said, “yeah but I do, and I’ve made that very clear”. Dude just stared at me and said “yeah I know”. HUH?? Make it make sense.

He’s begging me not to leave him……yeah, been there done that my dude, and look where we fucking ended up. I’m planning on texting my therapist first thing in the morning and ask for an emergency session, I’m feeling 10000 emotions right now and am feeling so hurt, betrayed, pissed, and just numb all at once. Sorry for the rant guys….this happened literally an hour ago and I’m still fuming. Don’t have anyone else to talk to at the moment, so I’m grateful for this sub 🫶🏻