Vent

I feel I need a break from social media. A little backstory: I have PTSD (from sexual trauma). I would go on social media. I’m very psychically isolated, meaning I don’t go out much due to disability. So I spend most days in my room, which I struggle with depression. So I wouldn’t want to go out anywhere. And generally, I’m happy. I guess with that, sometimes it’s torture, but sometimes I choose voluntarily to do it. My friends are busy. They have jobs. And I start college soon. But yet I feel alone and isolated (by my own choices and my own doing because of multiple reasons). So I’d spend a lot of time on social media. And I hear stories and stuff that’s bad, but it’s my only form of engagement and “community.” I’ve always been an isolating person, to where I would choose to stay in my own bubble and then in-engage in person. I was always like this, but my main problem is that I would see all these stories and I can’t delete the app because my friends would use them or I’d feel I’m missing out on something.

I do have a therapist. I’m trying to work through this with them.