My first K-Hole (I think)

So I really want to shed some light on this, as I’m still confused as to what happened and I don’t really remember it all, I can only say what my girlfriend said.

Me and my girlfriend did the usual, get a bit tipsy, do some 2cb as we find that it gives us more euphoria, and enjoy our night. We stop drinking much after the 2cb. I have a nasal spray that delivers about 4mg per spray, so equivalent of 8mg pill if you were to swallow it.

I did my first spray of 2cb, waited for the come up, it was amazing. Did a small bump of ket and holy crap they both amplified eachother so well and I loved it.

Did a second bump maybe 20 mins later. It was great.

We got home about 30-40 mins after my second bump, and we decided to redose 2cb. It’s amazing once again. Did more and more K throughout the night as we were home so it was safe.

So after about 3 bumps of K (once we got home), I had no idea what was going on, nothing seemed real, i loved it.

The last bump was a big bump, maybe about 50mg ish if I had to guess. Everything just started melting, I had no idea what was going on, then all of a sudden, the best way I can describe is I black out but I don’t. I thought my eyes were closed but they weren’t, I heard my girlfriend talking to me, I heard the music it was a surreal experience.

This is where my girlfriend’s side comes in as I don’t remember it that much. I was talking with her, saying that I love her, then I started to cry and then I said I don’t want to live anymore. I “woke up” sort of back to reality and was still crying uncontrollably, and I was so confused. But I do remember everything being very peaceful in the un describable place I was.

The worst part is my girlfriend is quite traumatised by it as I said I don’t want to live anymore, and I still don’t understand why I said that because I’m quite a happy person in general. She said she thought I was there, again because I was talking to her, my eyes were open, I was apparently looking at her.

I asked my friends who do a lot of K and they think it’s not a K Hole, as they don’t know anyone that speaks in a K Hole. Any light on this is greatly appreciated as this is literally stuck in my head and I just want some closure.

For more info, me and my girlfriend use 2CB a lot, it’s our go to drug if we want to have fun, we only recently started to use K as we were curious.