Anyone else watching fireworks alone?

I wonder if this NY, first which I'm spending alone, is just a beginning of a story that will follow me my whole life. Exactly one year ago my ex and I were together watching fireworks in Iceland. Now he is 10min away from me with no intention of texting me or seeing me. 11 months since we broke up, 4 months no contact. I really don't think I will ever in my life get over him. I loved him so much I was ready to leave everything and move away to the other side of the world for him. I love him still, and I don't know if I'll ever stop. The future just seems so dull. :(