endo making me limit what i can do physically on a almost daily basis

some days i cant even take my socks off. feed my cats (my boyfriend feeds them) clean their litter. scrub my shower. i had to re arrange where i had my pajamas as some days i couldnt even reach them. i feel so helpless. i love my boyfriend but i ask so much of him. i feel horrible hes in that position. i dont work because of my endo. the flare ups and uti symptoms and actual utis i was in and out of the er too much. shitting myself at work because how weak my pelvic floor is. i feel disgusting as a woman. im mad my body isnt working how its supposed to. miscarriages. not trying to get pregnant but knowing my body wasnt able to do what its “made for” breaks me. anyone who has felt like this. what helps? what makes u not feel weak? what makes u not feel useless in ur own bod? and then i think if they dont find endo during this surgery idk how i will be mentally. i know im not dramatic.