I’ve made up my mind—I’m done with DXM

When I first did it, it was a doorway to a strange and fascinating world that I couldn’t resist exploring. I started on the third plateau, and I learned quite a lot about myself, my anxieties, my fears, and how small I am in the grand scheme of things. Also it felt like I’d uncovered a secret dimension of life, how exciting!

The second plateau trips were super fun too. I’d get lost in absurd imaginary games with my girlfriend, laugh at random stuff, and just be a kid all over again.

But as amazing as these moments were, DXM hasn’t been good for me. It has made my social anxiety worse in the long run.

I’m on a holiday of sorts and in the past three weeks, I’ve taken around 2000 mg HBR.

And around 600 mg today. That’s a lot as I weigh 110 lbs.

Anyway, I’m done. I’ve enjoyed the trips, but I know this isn’t the path I want to stay on. I’m sticking to my SSRIs and letting DXM go. I might discuss the DXM+Bupropion antidepressant with my psychiatrist though.