i've finally lost it🔥🔥p.3 (SORRY ITS RIDICULOUS AT THIS POINT)

i’m posting the same title for the third time, please forgive me. hello AGAIN, everyone.😭😭😭 today, i’m here to bother you with yet another silly problem that has seriously impacted my life. i don’t want to go into too much detail or ramble, but until a few months ago, before my drarry obsession started, i used to draw and share art, read classic books, and occasionally watch movies. but ever since i’ve lost my mind over drarry, my life has been reduced to just oscillating between ao3 and school.

to explain how serious this is: i created my ao3 account in 2020, and the total word count of all the fics i’ve read from then until now is way less than the drarry fics i’ve devoured in just these past few months. i’m guessing some of you here are also “excessive” drarry readers, but while not being able to focus on other hobbies makes me sad, i’m not experiencing real “sadness.” on the contrary, the more i read, the happier i get, and i’m making no real effort to cut back. this lack of effort is actually what scares me the most.(IM ACTUALLY A UNIVERSITY STUDENT AND SOMEHOW DRARRY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVERYTHING I LEARN AT UNI)

even if i try to force myself to draw, i can only imagine drawing drarry at this point. i’m currently reading a long fic (A Forward Path by umbrellaless22 — i say long, but im about to finish it), and after that, i’ll try to read a classic book. please wish me luck.