Feeling like I’m being lead on
Ugh, I(22M) have had a crush on this girl(25F) for like a year, and the perfect time came to ask her out and she said yes that she’s down to go get coffee with me sometime. The weekend after I asked her she said she was busy because it was her birthday weekend, okay, fair enough. She asked me if the following week would work (this week), and I told her I worked a lot but if I could swing something I’d let her know.
On Monday, I asked her if she was free this Friday (today) and she said no, that she’s going to a symphony with her fam. Cool, again just timing. But I let her know pretty quick after that I was free some other days this week and to let me know if they line up, but she never got back to me. So I waited 2 days and heard nothing over text so I just texted again and said “hey I don’t mean to bug you about this and I apologize if it’s coming off that way, but I’d like to know what the plan is so I can plan around it.” And she got back to me immediately very apologetically and said “she sucks at texting” and that she’s busy with work, church and family all the times I suggested and asked if she could let me know about next week, apologizing again. I said yeah that’s fine, that I’m pretty open next week and just to let me know.
It’s been two days since then and that’s not very long so I’m just trying to be patient. I haven’t talked about the plans much in person, but when I have she seems to be down, but she really doesn’t text me at all. I admittedly have been lead on a few times before so I think I might be a little too weary of that, but I also feel like if she really wanted to go out she’d be more active in helping with the planning. I don’t want to be overbearing, so I plan on not mentioning anything about the date next week to give her a chance to reach out and let me know like she said she would.
I’m very worried that she’s not actually wanting to go out and that she’s just trying to make excuses to not go out with me as to not hurt my feelings. But at the same time I feel like that’s sort of irrational because she has expressed multiple times that she is down to go out and has clearly asked about later times. I just feel so conflicted because I’m eager to go out but I don’t want to seem desperate or needy, but I want to know that she’s not just going to keep putting the date off until later. “If she wanted to, she would” keeps replaying in my head. I think I need to let go and just see what happens and stop thinking so much about it for the next week.
Edit: clarification