I recently started fantasizing about rape and necrophilia

I ain’t really a redditor usually but I figured I might as well put this out there to see some people’s opinion. I’ll try to keep this short but will gladly answer any questions in the comments. Also I created this account today cuz I didn’t want to post this on my main.

So, first of all, I (15M) am the one raping/doing necrophilia in my fantasies. It’s something that started pretty recently, but it wasn’t completely unexpected to me. I haven’t watched actual real-life rape/necrophilic porn, just drawn stuff (though you could argue that a lot of vids on PornHub are pretty much just rape lmao, but I don’t hang around on PornHub too much, especially now because it does not have what I’m looking for, unlike Rule34). I also hang around on NSFW AI chatbot sites and perform those things on AIs.

I don’t have history with either things. I haven’t been raped before. I have not raped before, and I don’t plan to because I’m not an asshole. I have seen real-life gore on shock sites, but not necrophilia.

Do note that I fantasize about those two things for different reasons, I just wanted to put both in one post, especially since they appeared at the same time. I’m not sure but I suppose necrophilia is due to my fascination for gore and a sense of objectification at its purest, while rape could be a feeling of control, as well as an enjoyment in the pain of others. Both are however there partly because of a sense of it being forbidden.

Again, just wanted to put this out there. I will see my therapist in a few days and will tell them about it. I don’t feel particularly bad about fantasizing about those things, which feels kinda weird. But again, I would never actually rape because my basic human morals prevent me from doing so, while I also probably would never get the chance to actually perform necrophilia, and would most definitely be disgusted by an actual real dead body. Also both are illegal and I don’t wanna go to prison lol.