I did something bad,7 months ago.....................

I was 17 then (now 18,M) and was in summers after completing high school and giving entrance exams for universities and taking rest. But after school i was feeling very lonely bcoz my parents are very controlling and dont let me hang out with my friends bcoz they care so much about my safety. I was literally sitting in a room alone and bored for about 3 months. I would be really envious of my friends who post going outings on social media with their friends and girlfriends. That time,i started watching porn,especially the incest ones like a wife cheating with his brother in law or nephew. Then i started fantasizing about my aunt(whom i would fantasize from childhood) and got addicted to it. Then i really wanted to have sex with her. I made some indirect advances towards her like making a buldge visible over the clothes while normally talking with her, moving myself a little bit to make a brief contact with her, and staring at her sexually . I did all this 1 or 2 times and tried to notice her reaction. I thought of proceeding further if she shows any positive signs or move aback if she shows any discomfort or negative reaction.

But i couldnt observe any reaction from her and then the college started for me and i eventually got distracted from all these. All these happened 8 months ago and for 8 months i have been focusing on my studies and my ocd recovery(with which i am suffering for about more than a year).

For additional context, she is the one who made tongue to tongue contact with me when i was 3 or 4 or 5 yrs old i am really not sure. I dont remember whether it is one time incident or not. But there is a blurry image of my aunt doing it to me in my mind. I am also not sure whether she did it with sexual intent but most of my friends with whom i shared said me it sounds very inappropriate. I was also thinking if she did it to me when i was that young,she would be probably accepting to the sexual advances i make now. I dont know whether she even noticed my advances or took it seriously or liked or felt harassed by it.But she doesnt show any external reaction. She interacts with me like it was before like nothing happened.

Nowadays i am feeling much guilt towards her husband who has been working and not in home mostly due to the nature of his job. I am not sure whether my aunt SAed me , I am not sure how much big of an asshole i am for making sexual advances eventhough i knew she is married and have a kid. But under any case, my uncle is an innocent in all of these and i feel more guilty towards him and i do for my aunt.