Holy shite

I got diagnosed December 2023. Full psychosis in 2021. I've been on seroquel for a year. My doctors cut off my meds so I would see them, but it gives me so much anxiety and I feel like I'm in trouble. (I know I'm not, but I cant control it.)

I've been off antipsychotics for 2 days, and last night I think I was hallucinating. I couldn't see my dogs face, there were a bunch of scary faces in his fur. I was talking to my dog, I thought we were having a full conversation.

I didn't think 2 days without meds would have this effect on me, especially since I've spent most of my life without meds.

I just had to vent, if I told my bf this I'd scare him. It's hard to understand "I'm not crazy! But I'm tipping the line."

I need to make an appointment, it's just hard right now. I can't shake the feeling I'm a failure and fucking my life up and it's debilitating.

Haha fun update: Just found out I have Norovirus, so that's not helping my psyche.