Boos future wife

What hurts the most is in mid July u ask me to marry u with a ring with tears in ur eyes on that sunny day at the rest area near Albany oregon u said u wanted us u loved me me .. how can u cheat on me 2 months later and say u loved me and u want me to marry u u run bed a girls dream for me imagine ur a lier toe girl and one day u want to marry. A man of ur dreams and he breaks ur heart and it shatters. Feels like the wall have. Closed and ur locked in. And u don't what way to run. I'm scared I'm lonely my soul is a black empty hole and my heart is like shattered glass people's. Laying all around that's how broken I am I miss the lov of my life ,the love. E Sha Ed was beautiful but u chose her 2 months after the puposal why do that to I was excited to be ur wife on day why she just a downgrade from me I want my life back I want our love back u told me u didn't nt love her I don't understand what happened to us I'm still in love with love with u I just want my boo back.