I (F20) Gusto na iwan yung mama ko.

Problem/Goal:

I decided na I can't live with my mom anymore, pagod nako. She recently has a new boyfriend (kano) and I thought eto na talaga magiging father figure ko pero kasi she's letting history repeat itself nanaman. I love my mom, she's all I had for the entirety of my existence but I can only take so much. January 19 was my birthday, I turned 20 na so I asked my mom for a one on one talk abt how I want to move out na and if she can help me muna with the first month of rent payment until i find a suitable part time job that will go well with my schedule sa university. For context I want to move out because her said "boyfriend" attempted to rape me 3 time way back January 2 and she refused to believe me ulit. I'm tired of trying to understand her I just want to be seen and heard for once, and she's the person I least expected na di ako pakinggan. So we had the talk na abt me moving out, sabi ko kahit pahiramin lang nya ako ng 5k pa unang bagsak since i only want to move sa isang dorm near my university and its only available kako till this tuesday. Ayaw daw nya kasi dagdag gastos, so she'd rather have me molested para lang di makadagdag sa gastusin nya hwuaha I told her na babayaran ko naman once I find a stable income. She refuses still, hindi din naman daw ako mapagkakatiwalaan mag-isa so pumirmi nalang daw ako sa bahay.

I do not want to speak ill of my mom pero please understand na I can only take so much. You'll get where I'm coming from naman siguro if u knew the whole context. I have loved her whole heartedly and my love is for her to keep pero I am tired of being violated + blatantly seeing her na walang ginagawa abt it. My faith with the lord is wavering cause I can only pray to him na sana mabigyan ako ng financial breakthrough or even a job opportunity to get me out of this house. Si God nalang ang meron ako so despite my wavering faith, I'd rather think na I'm in this situation because hes preparing me for something big. It utterly feels unfair, I am tired.

Previous Attempts: - 3x ko na sya kinakausap abt how I want to move na dun sa dorm and ill even pay her back for the 5k - Other than that I'm still looking for a source of income.