Extreme TW:ADHD anxiety +People pleaser Combo

Today my thoughts told me I’m buying my friends by just being there for them in every way possible. Yes I have hella friendship struggles and always feel like I’m being a burden ass bitch due to my dysregulated emotions and hyperactivity so I try to compensate taking the ride or die role so im not intentionally funding friendships but ugh now my anxiety is like wait…. Help anyone else feel these feels?! I wish the world could install mind reading technology already