My boyfriend throws me out of the house after every argument

My (35f) boyfriend (35m) always wants to end our relationship every time we have a disagreement. It snowballs into larger fights and it gets very violent. He has physically picked me and pushed me out of the house without shoes or wallet or any of my things. Ive have cuts and bruises to show for it. I always blame myself for his reactions and though i also have a short temper, theres still no accountability on his part. I am always in the wrong. I dont want to leave him, but i know the emotional and physical abuse will still happen. Everyone tells me to leave him, but i cant.