Breadwinner Bride-to-Be

Hi, not sure if this post is allowed but I just want to share my struggles. I'm a breadwinner and I'm providing for my family well. I thought I'll never get married and I'm ready to get old alone and happy until I met my special someone who is now my fiancée. My problem now is while I'm earning well, I'm having a hard time to start with the wedding planning because di ako sanay gumastos para sa sarili ko. I have a feeling of guilt every time I think na gagastos kami ng malaki sa wedding namin. Siguro sakit ito ng mga givers na di kami sanay to spend solely para sa sarili namin.

I recognize naman na we can afford a wedding above 600K but the thought pa lang of paying 300k (my share) may guilt pa din. I know that this is a problem that I need to handle but gusto ko lang mag-vent out kahit na not all people will understand itong problema ko na pang-breadwinner.