damn it's lonely here

i spent a day w some people from my halls yesterday, when we were returning home the two girls i was with left to buy something and said they would meet us back. after waiting for a while they had already left to the accom and then i met them and they said that they thought I had left too

ik it was an accident and they probably didn't do it on purpose but I just feel so shit

like I feel so annoying and pushy, I keep trying to sit w them for breakfast in my dining hall but how can I tell if they don't want me there?

I'm always trying to sit w different people to get to know them but idk I just feel like everyone's already formed their groups, everyone's past the "heyy can I get your Instagram" phase cuz it's been 5 weeks

and I do have a group of friends and they are really lovely we play cards together and eat together and stuff but they like to go clubbing a lot but I don't wanna spend money on clubs or alcohol yk???

yeah vent

idk what to do lol