FacialTeam have ruined my appearance and my confidence

Apologies in advance for the long post I thought I would give an update on my nightmare experience with Facial team which has lasted years,I just want this to serve as a potential warning and opinion that I wish I knew before having FFS I am now just over 2 years from my scar revision with facial team and I honestly cannot say how much they have destroyed my life I have even considered not wanting to be alive anymore the stress has just been overwhelming, I have days where I just no longer want to live I can’t believe what has happened to me after my “revision” which has now left me with balding, scarring and a massive flat forehead my scar is such that I struggle to conceal it and spend so much time obsessing daily about it how to conceal it, is it showing etc, I will never be able to wear my hair down again, dye my hair or have any other hair style other than to put it in a clip in a bun to try and disguise from the scarring,

I went to facial team with hair down to my bum and had never had any issue passing, however I had an insecurity about my forehead from a previous surgeon so decided to look into getting something done I went to facial team with a rounded reasonably low hairline and left with a high uneven hairline,even after I said I would ideally like my hairline potentially lowered,

they insisted on their coronal approach even though I was unfamiliar and unsure they gave me all this spiel about what femininity was and how it was ratioed in the face even though I have my own ideas and opinions on what I thought would be best for myself I thought their approach was individual to my procedure, I now know they just perform the coronal incision on every patient regardless, they have Simply “perfected” a technique that they can copy and paste onto ever patient regardless of what would be best for the individual

, I cannot Believe how minimal and insignificant my surgery was so much so that I have now been left worse than before I went in my forehead was so high after my first surgery and now after my revision is even higher and has raised one of my eyebrows permanently leaving me with one eye completely different to the other, my forehead is just a large flat space with no rounding softness etc they literally just shaved of the brow bone and called it a day

I think when we see results that look “good” it’s always the side profile but this is because shaving a brow bone which is more prominent from the side is going to obviously be more obvious etc, but from my results the difference is absolutely minimal and worse

I feel that I have been given a “holistic” approach to FFS and not actually been give the best result possible which I think as transgender people paying a ton of money we deserve, being trans is so difficult, I unfortunately do not have family and missed a lot of opportunities in life saving for operations etc, the first Holiday I had abroad was my visit to Facial team so I was so excited and looking forward to hopefully ending a chapter and starting a new happy life but I have been left in financial ruin,

after paying for a revision and now my only opportunity to hopefully restore the damage done is a hair transplant which I have had quoted for £8000 and may not even work due to it being scar tissue, unfortunately I was having to do “adult work” to raise the money for my previous surgeries but I cannot bring myself to do that anymore as I was hoping I would never have to be forced to do it again as it left me feeling very low,

I believe I should have been treated as an individual and should have been allowed to been given the best results possible for such an extreme method of surgery, I was scoffed at during my Skype consultation for asking questions about different suturing techniques such as zig zag or the use of staples etc but as you can imagine I have been so worried and concerned about more scarring and more hairloss and it turns out I was right to be nervous as the “revision” has resulted in even more damage

I wish I could have been more vocal during my consultation about how much this was affecting me but I was shut down with some comment about not looking at the forest but looking at the single tree or some ridiculous quote, FacialTeam have destroyed a part of my life, my confidence and the few good things I feel I had about myself when I already had so little are gone, I assume they creep round so I hope they see this and really look into providing individual care to patients and not just “patenting” terms to cookie cut onto patients, I realise now that transgender patients are more vulnerable and are often needing multiple procedures which obviously is a goldmine for surgeons, I don’t know how I will afford to save up for this transplant and I don’t expect Facialteam would ever give me any of my money back, and I would never ever put trust in them to touch me again,but I hope and pray it will just mean I can put all this behind me and live my life without being stared at,

I appreciate that people out their are happy with their results and praise them but I simply cannot and do not believe they are out to genuinely improve the lives of transgender people,I think they are a group of surgeons who have discovered a niche and a way to make money through clever marketing and social media, Because it’s when things go wrong that you really see the truth

I have attached 5 pictures of my before hairline pre op, and the rest are after with the latest of my revision and hairloss