how to like myself?

this is a vent, but i also need help.

im stuck in my bed right now because i feel like i can't do anything in this body. im wearing a binder. i was ecstatic when i first got it, but now i feel like it just isnt enough. i cant exercise to relieve stress bc i'd 1. have to take off my binder and 2. have to see and feel how tiny and slim and weak my body is. i want to be strong, but dysphoria prevents me from even trying to get there. i thought i looked good with a binder and an open top, but when i got up and looked in the mirror i just saw my hair (too wavy, thick, and long, even after i got it cut) and my face that's like a perfect, girly doll. it kills me.

im literally just a girl. my family has stopped calling me "he" like they used to, probably because i don't look like a boy in any sense at all.

i just don't know what to do.

does anyone have any tips on how i can feel ok enough to get out of bed and exist? im 18 and entirely untransitioned and have made 0 progress towards looking masculine even though ive been out of the closet around an accepting family for 8 months