how to explore this?

hi! so i’m very new to therian spaces and sort of just looking to explore.

so i’m 21, i’m trans ftm, recently completed my transition, and have been playing in a pathfinder campaign. my character is a guy who was cursed with changeling traits so he has cat ears, a long tail, and other catlike features in his hands, feet, and face. when the other players and the DM were referring to my character as a catboy, talking about his cat features, etc. i realized i was feeling something extremely similar to when i’d play a male character pre-transition: euphoria.

when i start to think about it, there’s a pretty lifelong pattern of this sort of thing. i used to go to bed as a kid praying i’d wake up with a tail. in high school i was seriously obsessed with the animated she-ra series’s catra. i often describe myself as catlike (i sleep a lot, i’m kind of quiet, i get overwhelmed easily, i don’t always like physical affection and need space, etc).

so like.. what do i do about this? i get the sense there’s a lot of joy and affirmation here but it’s not like i can just transition- there’s no HRT to be a cat. how have yall lived your lives? are there terms i don’t know about to describe how animal vs human you feel? do you hang out with other therians? how did you get comfortable with this aspect of yourself? how do you express it? what makes you feel euphoric? thanks in advance and pls share what animal(s) you identify with :)