I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

I've always been a, what they call "good student". I have always been scoring good marks in my exams. I have always been studying properly, and I've never had any regrets.

Last year (2024) a lot of things happened that kinda ruined my boards prep. I had to take an eye surgery, so I had to stop reading and writing for over a month. I lost almost all my progress. In my preboards I scored 609/700 which is not too bad of a score, but i could've done a lot better.

My parents have always been supportive, but from last year, they've been putting a hell ton of pressure on me. Every night, every single fucking night my father tells me that you have to score atleast 690/700, you have to score more than your classmates, you have to score the highest in the school etc. I just feel to pressurized.

As I said earlier, due to the surgery, I couldn't study for more than a month. And after I scored not the greatest number on my preboards, even though my mother was supportive of me, my father would not stop telling me how my classmates scored more than me, how i didn't score as much as I expected. Like what the hell man, I couldn't study, I fucking did not have a choice, it's not my fault man. I can't even tell him anything cause, after all, he's my father.

I overheard my parents talking one day, they were discussing how I may not score as much they want me to in the boards.

I am giving it my all, and what the fuck would I do with 690 score, it doesn't matter.

I can't take it anymore. I can't take the pressure anymore. Every day I feel like shit, every day I feel like I'm a disappointment for my parents. I don't even know man....