How do you deal with the approach of the holidays?

It’s my first holiday season without my brother and I thought I was handling it well, until the last few days.

I’ve been working so hard on healing and processing my grief but it’s starting to feel impossible to stay positive around constant talk of the holidays.

A friend/coworker asked me today where I’m planning to spend Christmas and it was just so awkward, to have to say “well I’m not celebrating Christmas this year” and I know there are so many more conversations like that ahead.

I’m starting to feel angry that people aren’t being more sensitive when they know I’m only 6 months into my loss.