I'm super close to a burn out

Rant time. I feel like i need to stare at a wall for a very long time. I decided to leave for a tiny vacation with the intention of staying back, this was around December. For context, I'm a 2nd year uni student, yea so I had holidays and I wanted to leave. I tried finding stuff I could do to stay there, but then a day before I was leaving I met the man of my dreams and he was in this city, so he influenced me heavily to come back. The reason I was leaving was because, and I'm not proud of this at all, I had a situationship and I well, Maine usko 2 4 Galiya dedi, For context he cheated on me with his ex while using me as a rebound from his ex. Puri uni mein usne ye baat pehladi, meri reputation ki dhajiya urgayi, and that really hurt.

Abb we're at this place where people know what I've done before they know my name, so like apki behen ka naam bohat famous hogaya for all the wrong reasons. I don't really care anymore tho, my trip healed me, I want to go back and settle in that place, tou gpa pe focus hain.

That dude jiski waja se I came back, yea he left like a week later, Kamina mujhse Mila bhi nahi, leken idk what the future holds, mein over thinking Kar Kar ke thak gayi hu, I need someone to take my mind out, take all the backlogs and empty it out. Studies, uske saat family, uske saat all of this wired drama, I really feel like I never think about iss ke future pe kya effects parangay, and out of impulse koi kaand kardeti hu jo mujhe yaad bhi nahi rehta.