Drank alchohol until 20 weeks pregnant

FTM at 43. When I skipped a few periods (which were always irregular at best) I was thinking early menopause and nearly fell over when the doctor said 'You're pregnant'!

What a wonderful and unexpected joy! My LO is now 4 months.

She seems fine.

But I worry. I drank, oblivious to the little one growing inside of me until I found out at 20 weeks. I wasn't drinking every day but still regular enough and there were a handful of times I can recall where I had a few too many.

Has anyone else been here? I live in constant guilt thinking I may have hurt my LO. She seems fine but what if she's not?

I've put off writing this post because I am scared but today I am finally brave enough to do it.