Will I ever feel like a kid again?

I really realized it this time, money doesn’t make me happy. I want to feel like a kid again, happy, no anxiety, wonderful, careless.

But, working also doesn’t make me happy, even tho I like the field I’m in, the stress that comes with it destroys my life. Financial freedom would essentially be the only way I feel like I can ever feel like a kid again and truly happy, which is only achievable through working or winning a lottery.

Is it even possible to feel as good as I did when I was young ever again? I’m only 22 and have barely even started my career, it feels like I’m already exhausted of life. I don’t know if I’m depressed because I never felt suicidal, but I don’t really see the light anymore I once did, and everything nowadays is just mid, even tho I have people around me who care for me and love me, have a good financial situation etc.