How to Overcome the Need for Constant Companionship

I'm a 22 year old software developer, and my days are completely consumed by work as I navigate this fresh start in my career. Weekends are my only time to relax, but despite that, there's something I’ve been struggling with this deep longing to have someone to share my emotions and life with.

I’ve tried to find that connection, but I feel like I’ve utterly failed in love. My last relationship lasted seven months, but I was cheated on and left without closure. That was about six months ago, and while I’ve made progress in moving on, I’m still not completely over it. More than anything, I feel sorry for how I have always undervalued myself throwing myself at people just to fill the void of loneliness. I often placed myself so low that I would do anything just to have someone by my side.

Now, I’m in a constant battle with myself. Part of me still craves companionship, yet another part holds back, fearing the pain of another heartbreak. This internal conflict leaves me feeling drained, irritated, and even angry at times. More than anything, I don’t want to fail in love again. I don’t want to fail in marriage or in building a family.

Despite everything, I hold onto the hope of having a loving wife and a beautiful family in the future. And when that time comes, I want to carry forward everything I’ve learned so I can be a better partner, a better man, and create the life I truly deserve.