I kinda hate being gay

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t actually hate being gay. I actually quite like the way I am. But I am starting to worry that I won’t find anyone. 4 months ago me and my girlfriend broke up and it destroyed me. I’m still working on getting out of the depression. In fact, just recently I learned she got together with a man. Gotta love it right? Just for a disclaimer, she didn’t leave me for a man, she just got over it really quickly because I was such a piece of work because I was grieving. I feel like I needed to say that so she’s not placed as a bad person.

I’m a masc and my type is femmes. You see, I can tell when a femme likes women, but chances are they’re bisexual and have boyfriends lol. I know I’ll potentially meet people soon, as I’m going to college soon, but what if I don’t meet that person? Anyway, just a little rant. I’m not ready to date right now anyway, but I’m afraid that I’ll never find another love when I am ready.

Also, I know that I’ve got plenty of time to find someone as I’m only 18, but still it’s a valid worry.