golden dragon is gone 😭😭😭

(PLEASE be kind...i have autism and things like this affect me extremely deeply, especially when i had it on my mind for a long time and jellycats are a huge special interest 😞)

i've been looking forward to getting golden dragon for a while now but can't afford it...now he's gone from the canadian site and i'm hearing it's being retired 😭😭😭😭 i am SO genuinely upset. my bedroom is black and gold themed and i desperately wanted him for my bed and now i don't know what to do 😭 i have "be notified" done for huge onyx dragon (and all the others that come in huge because when i got sky dragon, i thought the large size was huge and was massively disappointed even though i still love him).

im so upset that im debating going and getting huge Bartholomew bear from my local store that sells jellies but what if onyx dragon comes back in stock and i then cant get him because i got Bartholomew 😭

i am so upset 😭

edit: did i do or say something wrong??? i don't understand what ive done wrong 😞 im sorry, i get so badly affected when something i had set in stone in my mind is changed or "ruined" in any way and i thought i could find some comfort in this sub. golden dragon was the one jelly i was so excited to get and saving the very small amount of money i make for. i didnt want to bother or annoy anybody. thank you so much to the person who linked a shop (i also didnt know the word "stockist") for me, i really cant thank you enough 🙏🏻🙏🏻 you're the best and truly saved the day.