I’m so embarrassed…

My friend (41f) came to tell me (28f) that she’s pregnant with her IVF baby and I bursted into tears… I’m so embarrassed.

For reference, in 3 IVF cycles I had plenty of eggs fertilized (~12/round) but all my embryos died between days 4-6. I never made a viable embryo to transfer and now I’m getting a lap in February to see if I have endo, though I’ve been told even if I remove it that it won’t help with my crappy egg quality.

She’s 41 and very sweet. She had transferred a euploid embryo a while ago and then was silent about it after the event. Recently she came over to tell me she is pregnant, and that she knows how hard IVF is and that I shouldn’t feel like I have to pretend to be happy for her or anything, that she understands. I truly wish her all the best and I knew this was coming, I had rehearsed how I was going to joyfully jump around, I had rehearsed the congrats to say.

Instead, I literally bursted into tears. I feel awful. I was in a public place too… I’m so embarrassed.