are we going to be okay?

okay first off i just want to say im really privileged, a minority of a minority living in a blue state of one of the richest countries in the world. but i'm also scared of what trump is gonna do. i'm a minor, and i'll be a minor for most of trump's presidency, so i cant do much (and logically, i shouldn't worry - my state is bluer than the ocean that sleeps beside her), but its scary to think that i might get put into an extermination camp for the crime of being just wanting to be a little bit different than the way i was born.

i dont want to be exterminated. i dont want canada to be invaded. i dont want the state to control social media. i'm especially scared of that last one. if the state controls socials, then i might not have any clue on the outside. for all i know, canada could be invaded next year and i'd have no idea. that's just something that's horrifying to think about, that the next four years (or even more...) would be full of terrible nazi war crimes but id know nothing about it, because my only connections outside of the us is through a filtered internet. and then one day, the army's gonna knock at my door, show my online footprint that im a bit of a transgender, and send me off to a death camp.

i know i shouldn't be scared. i love god and i hope he (and the church) can protect me from getting sent to a camp and dying. ghhhhhhh maybe its just because im reading about nazis at school. and im seeing some patterns between the jews and transgender people these days. but thats the PROBLEM right like if hitler can take years to remove jews' rights, while trump takes like, a week, then am i going to live to adulthood? to see the next old hag take the throne of america? i'm still closeted to my parents (they LOVEEEE jesus!! and they take the "dont harm yourself" stuff pretty seriously - and apparently surgery is a part of that.) and im really not feeling like coming out - i just dont want them to worry. but now im the one stuck worrying and scared for my life (saying this as i live in wealthy bay area suburbia - i think i'm actually going insane.)