Pretty sure I have an ectopic pregnancy and Ifeel like my body is trying to kill me

update 11/02: it is ectopic. got the methotrexate yesterday, keeping my fingers crossed.

I'm 32, a trans man, and my hubs and I have been ttc for 18 months. Got my first positive test the Monday before last, at 4 weeks. Last week was bliss, until Friday. Since then, it's been nonstop cramping, bleeding, bloating, some days too much for me to be at work. Got myself into the ER over the weekend, and have been working with a nurse since. Monday, my hcg was at 1480. Today, two days later, a measly 1550.

I feel like garbage, and I don't have much hope left for this pregnancy. On Friday, I'll get another blood draw and then go to the doctors office in the afternoon to discuss moving forward. My husband, on the other hand, is staying hopeful and it's honestly making me feel grumpier.

I don't know what I need-- I'm just so sad that this lil sesame seed who gave me so much joy last week is wrecking me now, and I'm feeling the weight of my age.