anyone else genuinely not hate yourself

I do fawn instinctually so it gets misconstrued as low self-esteem - but then none of the therapy or advice I get given ends up being helpful because my primary issue is just paralyzing fear and anger of the external world, I don't really have a negative self perception issue. Inner child work also seems like kind of a miss, cause my inner child is cool with me, she just wishes someone that wasn't me was nice to her.