i miss having a boyfriend

i miss the security of being in a relationship. i miss having to say i love you before i went to sleep and i miss waking up to his messages about his day. about what he ate, what he did, what he finished, and his work. i miss being able to message someone about random rants about how my outfit didn't look too good or how i got compliments although i half assed my make up. i miss taking pictures of random stuff and sending it to him bc it was funny.

i also miss calling someone pretty and meaning it. i miss making gifts for someone and hearing their reaction. i wont be having a relationship for a long time because of how much it hurt me but man i miss it so much